chicken

yesterday marked the anniversary of me meeting my dad for the first and last time. one and only one time. why am i still chasing after that meeting, so desperately wanting to know as an adult if i was really wanted or if i was simply a bother that day…
i spoke with my mom yesterday but i was too fearful to bring up the conversation, difficult and painful…so i did what any cowardiced individual might do…i chickened out…
friday i meet up with her and she will be taking me out to lunch. maybe then i can bring it up. we’re both adults right, i can have an calm, stable conversation with my mother right?
we’ll see….

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wanted

Today I want so many things....

I want to be over this divorce...

I want to have finished my taxes...

I want to have traded in my car already, the one I have to make payments on, the one that is guzzling gas, the one that has scratches on it which decreases its value. I want to trade it in for a junker, hopefully that will go a hundred thousand miles.

I want so many things on this day.

acceptance

This weekend I received an acceptance of application in the mail from Columbia State.

So, I am accepted. Now it is up to me to do the work. I have only one class to finish to be able to receive just an Associate’s Degree.

How simple it sounds, and yet it has taken so much for me to get to this point.

Life is not simple. This simple task is not simple in my world. But, hopefully I can continue on…not quitting, not giving up.

We’ll see….

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